why is it...

let me forwarn you that this may turn out to be a rant about a couple of things...i have wanted for a long time to say the things that i am about to say...i may hurt a few people's feelings and i may just tick some people off...but i have to say this...why is it that every religion thinks their religion is the best...work with me here...for years the church of christ has been stereotyped of "you are the ones who don't have music"..yes we do we sing every time the doors are open...or "you think you are the only ones going to heaven" well unfortunately there are few of them who do truly believe that...all i have to say to that is glad you are making God's decisions...or "yall believe that you got to go all the way under the water to be saved"...well Jesus did so why don't you...He was immersed you know...that came straight from the good book...or "yall are the ones who take the Lord's Supper every Sunday"...why yes we do...anywho...on we shall go with the churches i have run into who have resorted to calling other common denominations "occults", or those who will not let you partake of the Lord's Supper, if it should be on that one particular sunday of the quarter, unless you are a member of that church, or to those churches that have a committee for forming committees...or those churches who have human leaders that they equate to the good Lord Almighty...or those who feel it is ok to drink like a fish during the week and don't mind buying their case of beer at walmart on saturday so they can drink it after the sermon on sunday...here is the bottom line...I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT GOD...IF IT IS WRITTEN HE HAS TOLD YOU WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW...IF WE SPENT HALF THE TIME WE SPEND ON FINDING FAULTS WITH OTHERS ON STUDYING THE WORD OF GOD...I WOULD NOT BE HAVING THIS CONVERSATION....AND THIS GOES FOR ME TOO!

here is the scoop...

first of all i want to thank everyone for all the prayers that were sent up for me during this long illness...i truly felt the prayers everyday...my favorite part is that my dear friend miranda sent out emails to our high school classmates asking for prayer and to give them an update on my condition...it was very hard for me to ask people for help....i don't like to ask for anything....you do not realize how much you can't do for yourself until you are faced with it...so here is the scoop...after three hospitalizations since may 19, deciding to quit breathing and having my pj's cut off of me in front of my mother, and being told i had a broken rib, i underwent an ercp which revealed the problem...my pancreatic duct was 1/4 the size it should have been so the doc put a stint in place and my duodenum was 95% blocked...both of these were full of gallstones...the doc said that when he drained both of these it looked like what comes out of a car after you change the oil...YUCK..he said that no food could go down or come up hence the reason i was in so much pain...basically the food had been sitting there for over a month...doc said, "it was gross"...i am doing better...have gone back to work...am learning to take care of me rather than pleasing everyone else...for example, this was my first week back at work and on friday morning i woke up sick, we will not go into the details, i did not go to work...no second thoughts, no going in late, no feeling guilty, i did not go to work...i rested all day...still not feeling great...but i am alive....we are now looking at lap band surgery...i was told my dear doctor who i trust with my life...told me that i would be dead within five years of cirrhosis if i did not have lap band surgery to reverse the fatty liver...so here is the deal...i did not have fatty liver in september...but we have linked the fatty liver to the new insulin that i started in september...it is a LONG story....but anyway, i will have a liver biopsy when i have the lapband surgery....but most importantly...THANK YOU for all the prayers, cards, visits, food and everything else....love to you all.....

who is betty crocker.....

i have recently ordered this easy bake bundt cake pan...it is totally AWESOME...it is made of some sort of plastic and it cooks in the oven on the rack up to 450 degrees...so here is the process and the end result...granted i know the cake is not beautifully iced...but hey those of you who know me know that this is a major accomplishment.....

i am not as dumb as i look....

many of you know that my one thing in life that frustrates me more than anything else is my HOUSE!!! Lord knows i try to work, raise kids, raise my husband, go to church and be the superwoman that i want to be...but my house is usually the last on the list - i let it slide because i tell myself that nobody ever comes to my house because i live so far out in the woods....anyway, my daughter finished her junior year and she has never had to work any type of job or anything...momma and daddy have always given her what she wanted...well i told her she could either get a job at a fast food resturant or be my maid...to my surprise she chose to be my maid...now i am blessed in the fact that jamie is very good at cleaning...she is quick and thorough...so instead of worrying myself to death over the house...she is my maid and she gets paid...now we are not talking about washing the dishes...we are talking deep cleaning...this first week has been awesome...i will post pictures as soon as i can...with me being sick over the past couple of weeks, this has allowed me to heal much quicker...hope everyone has a great weekend....