boys were born on mars.....

ok gang, if i could have burned my son's room down without burning the rest of the house i would have...it was so bad that i am utterly ashamed to even have a before and after picture...what got me inspired was a blog that i found, i think on becky's blog, about a tour of children's rooms and nurseries...so we jumped into cleaning up his room for the millionth time....actually my great and wonderful husband headed up this adventure...anyway, when it was done jacob came to me and said, "i am never messing my room up again...daddy has broke me"...ok that was funny...but that is not the best part....my children have chores for the summer...one of jacob's chores this summer is to make his bed everyday...now i am not a stickler for stuff but i am trying to show jacob that it is alot of hard work to keep a space clean...so anyway, i went into his room and helped him make up his bed so that he would know what i expected when i came home from work everyday...so the bed is made...it is so pretty and he wants to put his spiderman blanket at the end of this bed...ok...innocent enough huh...well i get up this morning to check on him..and what did i find????? jacob is asleep under spiderman and on top of his made bed from last night....i am telling you that the male species is weird...but we love them anyway.....

where do we go from here?

this is a question i have been asking myself for several days ...especially while laying in icu...i have alot of decisions to make on many levels in the next few weeks...i ask that you all pray for me to make the right decisions for my physical health and more importantly my spiritual health...i am so happy to be back in the land of the living...however i have a ways to go...here is the reader's digest condensed version of what has been going on over the past two weeks...on may 20th, i passed out at work...had not been feeling great but hey you got to keep working right...bp was sky high and pulse was in the 150 range...well they send me to the hospital via ambulance...yeah.....and i stayed in the er for four hours to be told that i had an asthma attack...the kicker is that i don't have asthma...did i mention that they stuck me 8 times to get an iv, two failed arterial sticks for abg's and then a femoral artery stick...omg...it hurt...anyway they sent me home...wednesday i went back to my regular doctor who decided to put me in the hospital and see what was going on cause now i had blood in my urine and lots of other stuff...so we go to the hospital, get a picc line, some iv antibiotics and pain meds...cause you see my back is killing me but i am also having upper left quadrant pain...i did ok for wed and thurs night but friday night was a different story...evidently...my respiratory system gave in to the pain meds i was on and i quit breathing...all i know is that i woke up in icu with everyone standing over me screaming at me...i was on oxygen for several days...puked my guts out for about six hours...it was horrible...while in icu we did several more tests including three ct scans...these revealed that i have severe fatty liver disease...what does this mean you may ask...well your liver processes everything in your body...well i am diabetic so my body does not use the insulin that i produce...what littile it is...so i inject myself with insulin...my body uses what it can and the rest of it is stored in my liver and turns to fat...therefore, it is a relentless cycle that my body goes through when trying to lose weight, manage diabetes and everything else...so prolonged fatty liver disease will cause cirrhosis...i thought that was only for drunks...anyway...so my doc...who is absolutely wonderful might i add...told me that if we did not get a handle on this now...i would be dead in five years of cirrhosis...hello...did you wake up cause i sure did...so his solution is for me to have a liver biopsy to make sure there is nothing else going on and then have lap band surgery...he states that if lose 100 or so pounds then the fatty liver can be reversed...for many reasons...one the forced weight loss will require me to use less insulin and the weight loss in and of it self will help...i am not one to be easily defeated but i have tried numerous times to lose weight and it only gets worse because various factors...so that is the long and short of where i have been...please keep me and my family in your prayers as we go through this journey together...also pray that i will be able to keep my job...we all know that jobs are few and far between right now....

where oh where have i been?

let's see...it seems like i have been around the world in not 80 days but maybe 14...it has been a whirlwind...i am still working in boaz two days a week...in pell city three days a week...oh i'm sorry make that the other 5 days of the week - yes that includes weekends...i am tired and oh so weary...ok enough of that...

it has been busy...stephen has had viral pink eye...my aunt had brain surgery again...kids have been sick with everyday crud....jamie went to a friend's house and had a run in with a scooter and an incline...guess who won...i am tired or rain and thunder...oh and did i mention that some days we have power and some days we don't...

but the best part of the past two weeks? i should put this on a blog of its own, but my team at golden living raised over $800 for relay for life...it was GREAT...and i got to have dinner with some of my closest friends from high school last night at top of the river...some of them i had not seen in 15 years...it was great...

i guess i should quit fussing and whining because i am alive, my child is cancer free and i have a job....

blogging is therapeutic...