what was i thinking....when a dozen people tell you that you should not take a job...please listen because they evidently know something that you don't know....i am unemployed by the grace of God right now...I am happy to be out of that hell hole that will remain anonymous....why did i ever think that a social worker...a lowly social worker could change anything...why did i go and put my heart into something that was already having a coronary itself....those of you who know me and where i have been are shaking your heads yes and probably laughing at me...so anyway....i have realized that i have done just about all that i want to do as a social worker...i have a few things on my bucket list to do, but being the highest paid lbsw is not one of them anymore...just saying....like a brick fell on my head and i realized it is not the money i need it is the satisfaction that i held someone's hand today, i wiped a tear, i made someone smile with some goofy thing i said, i held the hand of a daughter who was watching her mother die, i called the priest for a man that was having alot of problems....that is what i need....my reward will come later....if my mouth will just stay shut....
love to all....
My Bassakward Group
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Sunday, September 25, 2011
The Run Down...
It seems like ages since I updated my blog. So much has gone on. Let's see if I can break it down.
*fellow social worker quit 2 weeks after I started - am I really that hard to work with?
*had the whole building to myself
*daughter has started second semester of college
*son is in 7th grade
*busier than a one armed paper hanger
*Stephen's mom passed away
*I ended up in ICU...
*got new social worker
*company has been sold....that was a surprise
*attended my husband's 25th high school class reunion
That is all I can think of right now!
It has been a busy time in my life, but I am very blessed. This is the biggest learning curve, at work, that I have ever had. It has been some stressful times, and I have thought about giving up. But, those that know me, know that I don't give up easily. A friend of mine told me that in the Catholic religion, that if you name the person who you are praying for it gives the prayer more power. I don't know, but I will tell you since my melt down last week, I have been naming names in my prayers. You see, I had to come to realize that God is BIGGER than any company I work for, any supervisor or anybody. So that may sound silly that I had to realize that, but maybe it was just that I needed a reminder.
I have a beautiful view out of my window at work. The building I work at is on top of a mountain. So the day I had the meltdown, I opened the window and just let the fresh air blow in my face. I looked down the mountain at God's creation. I literally prayed for God to put His hand a little tighter over my mouth! No joke...true story!
I have prayed everyday since then, and my oh my how that changes things. I have always struggled with my prayer life, but I still work on it. I fail miserably everyday at being the Christian that God wants me to be. But I can tell you, that I try very hard.
My job is very stressful. There is no set routine. Things change from minute to minute, but I still feel that I do what God called me to do. A friend of mine told me not long ago that not only does God open a door when another one closes, He is on both sides of the door to start with. I really had to think about that one!
So that is what life has dealt me in the last few weeks...I do have some funny stories to post, but that will have to come at a later time.
Love to all,
*fellow social worker quit 2 weeks after I started - am I really that hard to work with?
*had the whole building to myself
*daughter has started second semester of college
*son is in 7th grade
*busier than a one armed paper hanger
*Stephen's mom passed away
*I ended up in ICU...
*got new social worker
*company has been sold....that was a surprise
*attended my husband's 25th high school class reunion
That is all I can think of right now!
It has been a busy time in my life, but I am very blessed. This is the biggest learning curve, at work, that I have ever had. It has been some stressful times, and I have thought about giving up. But, those that know me, know that I don't give up easily. A friend of mine told me that in the Catholic religion, that if you name the person who you are praying for it gives the prayer more power. I don't know, but I will tell you since my melt down last week, I have been naming names in my prayers. You see, I had to come to realize that God is BIGGER than any company I work for, any supervisor or anybody. So that may sound silly that I had to realize that, but maybe it was just that I needed a reminder.
I have a beautiful view out of my window at work. The building I work at is on top of a mountain. So the day I had the meltdown, I opened the window and just let the fresh air blow in my face. I looked down the mountain at God's creation. I literally prayed for God to put His hand a little tighter over my mouth! No joke...true story!
I have prayed everyday since then, and my oh my how that changes things. I have always struggled with my prayer life, but I still work on it. I fail miserably everyday at being the Christian that God wants me to be. But I can tell you, that I try very hard.
My job is very stressful. There is no set routine. Things change from minute to minute, but I still feel that I do what God called me to do. A friend of mine told me not long ago that not only does God open a door when another one closes, He is on both sides of the door to start with. I really had to think about that one!
So that is what life has dealt me in the last few weeks...I do have some funny stories to post, but that will have to come at a later time.
Love to all,
Friday, August 12, 2011
who wants to catch up?
We have been so busy it is unreal. If my kids played sports or such I think I would crazy. We have all of Jacob's stuff bought for school - supplies and clothes. This is all thanks to my sister...Lib. She did an awesome job. This took alot off of me.
I started a new job. It has been wild. Their paperwork is so totally different than anything I have ever seen, but I am learning. Everybody is helpful witht he exception of a few. We did have the other SW quit...long story. It was an event in the making. I really like my office - it has a bathroom in it!
Jamie is about to start her second semester of her Freshman year. She had a gotten a job at the local grocery store. That did not go well. That is another story. Anyway, Stephen and I have employed her as our "maid." We had to have a re education in what deep cleaning meant, but she is doing great. Jacob has chores of his own. They both get an allowance for their chores. I am very proud of both of them.
Had a wonderful church service Sunday? He asked 10 questions about being a Christian. Some of them I looked at him like he was crazy, but it all made sense in the end. When I get the outline, I plan to post it on here. I had wanted to go to each night of the revival, but work had another plan for me.
I have reconnected with an old friend that I grew up with - Rebecca Bradley. I am sooooo excited. I have missed her over the years, and I am so glad she is back in my life.
That is about all that has happened this week. I plan to have a busy weekend. So I will have another post later. What have you done this week? Love to all....
I started a new job. It has been wild. Their paperwork is so totally different than anything I have ever seen, but I am learning. Everybody is helpful witht he exception of a few. We did have the other SW quit...long story. It was an event in the making. I really like my office - it has a bathroom in it!
Jamie is about to start her second semester of her Freshman year. She had a gotten a job at the local grocery store. That did not go well. That is another story. Anyway, Stephen and I have employed her as our "maid." We had to have a re education in what deep cleaning meant, but she is doing great. Jacob has chores of his own. They both get an allowance for their chores. I am very proud of both of them.
Had a wonderful church service Sunday? He asked 10 questions about being a Christian. Some of them I looked at him like he was crazy, but it all made sense in the end. When I get the outline, I plan to post it on here. I had wanted to go to each night of the revival, but work had another plan for me.
I have reconnected with an old friend that I grew up with - Rebecca Bradley. I am sooooo excited. I have missed her over the years, and I am so glad she is back in my life.
That is about all that has happened this week. I plan to have a busy weekend. So I will have another post later. What have you done this week? Love to all....
Saturday, August 06, 2011
have you ever....
have you ever just felt lost...i really can't pinpoint why, but i am right now. it makes me very sad. i am not depressed, i love my job, things are good at home for the most part...
i guess i am feeling more unappreciated than anything. i have done some pretty enormous things lately for some people in my family and got not even a thank you. now before you say it, i did not do these things for praise, but is it me or is thank you just common sense....
i feel detached from something and i am not going to mention what it is...i will tell you it is NOT God...because without HIM i would be at the bar drunk....:) i am missing some friends that live far away...i want to book a hotel room, wiggle my nose and they all be there....i feel like no one ever calls me...i have to call them to chat and then i feel like i am interrupting their day...am i being obnoxious and pms - ing even though i don't do that anymore...
i am seriously just lost...why can't it be like it used to be...
i guess i am feeling more unappreciated than anything. i have done some pretty enormous things lately for some people in my family and got not even a thank you. now before you say it, i did not do these things for praise, but is it me or is thank you just common sense....
i feel detached from something and i am not going to mention what it is...i will tell you it is NOT God...because without HIM i would be at the bar drunk....:) i am missing some friends that live far away...i want to book a hotel room, wiggle my nose and they all be there....i feel like no one ever calls me...i have to call them to chat and then i feel like i am interrupting their day...am i being obnoxious and pms - ing even though i don't do that anymore...
i am seriously just lost...why can't it be like it used to be...
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Have you ever....
Have you ever felt so bad physically and emotionally but then feel guility because you know there are others who are worse off than you? That is where I have been lately. I am one of the most blessed women on the face of the Earth. Some people don't understand how our family works but we do. We are all healthy and happy for the most part. But sometimes I just get to feeling sad and all I want to do is cry. I miss people. I get disgusted at work. I get tired of the corporate latter. But yet I want to work. I want to be that parent that is at church with clean little children and husband in tow. I want to be that person who always remembers everyone's birthdays and baby showers. I want to be that mom that that teachers don't dread see coming. I want all of this but don't know how to get it. I want to host parties, I want a pretty yard. Is this all too much to want? Is this what they call a Gold Digger?
Friday, July 22, 2011
It's a wrap.....
It has been a while since we last spoke. I am not one of those gifted writers who can just type out some hilarious, thought provoking, inspirational post,i.e. Becky, Karen, Dana.....just sayin....
Anyway, thing have been pretty quiet around here, but I expect that to chane since I said the Q word. Jamie is still working at the grocery store and getting good hours. She got registered for her 2nd semester - survey of the New Testament, Intro to Sociology, English 101 (again b/c she had a psychotic teacher) and ie intermediate Algebra, which she totally rocked Algebra 100 last semester. She has changed her major to Computer Information Systems with an emphasis in graphic design. Very proud of her. Oh and did I mention she bought her brother a birthday present out of her own money without being reminded.
Jacob is growing way too fast. He is about to be 12 years old and starting the 7th grade. I don't know if I am ready for that, but I really don't have a say in that either. He has played so much this summer. What is it about boys and that smell they put off? We call it "male smell". He smells like a locker toom everyday. He has really slimmed down a lot. His reading is coming along very nicely. I don't think his teachers will think so, but what do they know. We are having a pool party for him on Saturday at my aunt's house.
I have started my new job. The jury is still out on that one. I have been doing this for 15 years and have never seen quite the arrangement that is going on. Folks don't know how to talk to each other - like almost screaming. They are very immature. Now if they start that with me, well yall know where that is headed - south - quickly. They are very unorganized. I knew going into the job there were problems, but it looks like to me that most of it is the employees. If you have employees who know how to act and will do their job then you don't have probkems. On another note, we had a health scare. To make a very long story short, I went to work Monday and just did not feel good. I had not felt good since Friday. Anyway, my heart was beating at 145 and my blood pressure was 145/110. Nobody asked me any questions, she called the ambulance and off to Gadsden Regional I went. Come to find out I was septic from pyelonephritis, had a bladder infection and slight pnemonia. They wheeled me right on up to MICU where I stayed for 4 days there on a dopamine drip and 3 days in a regular room. You all know I am not a good patient, but I must have behaved bc they were still talking to me when I left. I only had one problem while there and it was with a doctor. When he was putting my central line in, he kept telling me how fat I was. I had just bout had enough of this and d rei politely told him that I have a mirror and am quite aware of my size. You all know there was some colorful conversation that followed. Anyway, other tanat.
Daughter has just told me her car is "scrubbin and it did not steer well". This is a big old sad face. I guess that will be vacation money or a great portion of it. But I would rather have my dauhter a safe car than laying on the beach, although that sounds more applelaing
Stephen is doing well.He just work like trojan horse. He has been there 14 years come September. I am very proud of him.He gets to work from home 2 days a week, for putting up with me which is a full time job.
Well that is a wrap for the lfe and times of the Bassakward family. If you finished reading this, then you a true fried! Love to all
Anyway, thing have been pretty quiet around here, but I expect that to chane since I said the Q word. Jamie is still working at the grocery store and getting good hours. She got registered for her 2nd semester - survey of the New Testament, Intro to Sociology, English 101 (again b/c she had a psychotic teacher) and ie intermediate Algebra, which she totally rocked Algebra 100 last semester. She has changed her major to Computer Information Systems with an emphasis in graphic design. Very proud of her. Oh and did I mention she bought her brother a birthday present out of her own money without being reminded.
Jacob is growing way too fast. He is about to be 12 years old and starting the 7th grade. I don't know if I am ready for that, but I really don't have a say in that either. He has played so much this summer. What is it about boys and that smell they put off? We call it "male smell". He smells like a locker toom everyday. He has really slimmed down a lot. His reading is coming along very nicely. I don't think his teachers will think so, but what do they know. We are having a pool party for him on Saturday at my aunt's house.
I have started my new job. The jury is still out on that one. I have been doing this for 15 years and have never seen quite the arrangement that is going on. Folks don't know how to talk to each other - like almost screaming. They are very immature. Now if they start that with me, well yall know where that is headed - south - quickly. They are very unorganized. I knew going into the job there were problems, but it looks like to me that most of it is the employees. If you have employees who know how to act and will do their job then you don't have probkems. On another note, we had a health scare. To make a very long story short, I went to work Monday and just did not feel good. I had not felt good since Friday. Anyway, my heart was beating at 145 and my blood pressure was 145/110. Nobody asked me any questions, she called the ambulance and off to Gadsden Regional I went. Come to find out I was septic from pyelonephritis, had a bladder infection and slight pnemonia. They wheeled me right on up to MICU where I stayed for 4 days there on a dopamine drip and 3 days in a regular room. You all know I am not a good patient, but I must have behaved bc they were still talking to me when I left. I only had one problem while there and it was with a doctor. When he was putting my central line in, he kept telling me how fat I was. I had just bout had enough of this and d rei politely told him that I have a mirror and am quite aware of my size. You all know there was some colorful conversation that followed. Anyway, other tanat.
Daughter has just told me her car is "scrubbin and it did not steer well". This is a big old sad face. I guess that will be vacation money or a great portion of it. But I would rather have my dauhter a safe car than laying on the beach, although that sounds more applelaing
Stephen is doing well.He just work like trojan horse. He has been there 14 years come September. I am very proud of him.He gets to work from home 2 days a week, for putting up with me which is a full time job.
Well that is a wrap for the lfe and times of the Bassakward family. If you finished reading this, then you a true fried! Love to all
Sunday, July 03, 2011
It's been a while...
we have been so busy in this season called summer where you are supposed to relax. ha...that's for the birds. Work is going good and I am about to go to work at a nursing home in Bham. They pay a whole bunch more than this part time consulting work i am doing.
very excited - i got $590 worth of clothes yesterday for $254 and that included tax. I will be a sharp dressed lady at work. Now just to go buy shoes and jewelry.
Jamie got a job! Thank you to Man upstairs. She is working at a loca grocery store. She has done really well about setting her alarm clock and getting up. You know she is the princess. She finished the first semester with an A - Algebra, B - Biology, B Speech and B Pyschology. I was very proud of her. She has changed her major to CIS and will focus on web desing and graphics.
I am working on an article that I will submit to "Social Work Today" about skilled nursing facilities. I don't have a title yet. When I finish it and it is ready to be submitted I will post it. I know not everyone gets "Social Work Today" so there you will have it
I am still doing great. If I could only sleep I would be perfect. It escapes every night. NO health problems here.
I have bought a new car - not new but new to me. It is a 2006 Chevy Cobalt. It is really cute and gets great gas mileage.
If you are still reading this you must be a real friend, cause this is really boring. I just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive.
Hugs to all!
very excited - i got $590 worth of clothes yesterday for $254 and that included tax. I will be a sharp dressed lady at work. Now just to go buy shoes and jewelry.
Jamie got a job! Thank you to Man upstairs. She is working at a loca grocery store. She has done really well about setting her alarm clock and getting up. You know she is the princess. She finished the first semester with an A - Algebra, B - Biology, B Speech and B Pyschology. I was very proud of her. She has changed her major to CIS and will focus on web desing and graphics.
I am working on an article that I will submit to "Social Work Today" about skilled nursing facilities. I don't have a title yet. When I finish it and it is ready to be submitted I will post it. I know not everyone gets "Social Work Today" so there you will have it
I am still doing great. If I could only sleep I would be perfect. It escapes every night. NO health problems here.
I have bought a new car - not new but new to me. It is a 2006 Chevy Cobalt. It is really cute and gets great gas mileage.
If you are still reading this you must be a real friend, cause this is really boring. I just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive.
Hugs to all!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
the blessings continue to flow
*my daughter got a job
* i am still doing well
* decreased my meds by half
* no more surgeries scheduled
* looking for a full time job
*back to working part time
* spending time with old friends
* date nights with hubby
*air conditioner fixed
*a new car
*my son's reading is ROCKING right now
* summer reading lists - David Baldacci rocks
*too many more to mention
* i am still doing well
* decreased my meds by half
* no more surgeries scheduled
* looking for a full time job
*back to working part time
* spending time with old friends
* date nights with hubby
*air conditioner fixed
*a new car
*my son's reading is ROCKING right now
* summer reading lists - David Baldacci rocks
*too many more to mention
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
miracles still happen
i have been waiting a few days to post this...i want to share the healing that God has given me...as many of you know I have been sick for 14 months...severe stomach issues...i have been to brookwood hospital several times and have had several procedures done to try to correct the issues...nothing seemed to work so they sent me to the university of south carolina for further more in depth tests...i was told in sc that i needed to have a gastric pacemaker in my stomach...i came home to get prepared for the trip to the university of mississippi...well i had a nerve block done last friday that sent my blood sugar through the roof...sent me into DKA...called my endocrinologist at Brookwood and found out that he was out of the country so they sent me to st vincent's where his parnter was working...while there a GI doc that i know came by and told me that we needed to put a tube down my nose to bypass my stomach and in my side to by pass my stomach but in the meantime he wanted to perform the next test to prepare me to go to mississippi...so we go for the 2 hour gastric emptying study....later that day he came back and said, "you are not going to like what i have to say." i said, "what, my stomach is rotten, i could have told you this..." he said, "no dear you do not have gastroparesis anymore" obviously this confused me...we talked for a little bit...he told me, "your test is 100% normal...you are healed my child." i was discharged from the hospital...i have not had any of my stomach medicines in almost a week, i have eaten anything i wanted to eat, went out to dinner with my hubs at olive garden on friday...i have not vomited in over a week....
over the past year and a half...i have had so many people praying for me...from coast to coast - north south east to west...i truly believe that God has healed me...even my blood sugars are normal....
don't ever give up on God bc although He may not answer your prayers in your time He will answer them in His time
over the past year and a half...i have had so many people praying for me...from coast to coast - north south east to west...i truly believe that God has healed me...even my blood sugars are normal....
don't ever give up on God bc although He may not answer your prayers in your time He will answer them in His time
Monday, May 16, 2011
not much has changed....but yet so much has
not much has changed here in lincoln, al. i am still battling the stomach issues...no need to go into that cause it is really gross. but one thing has changed...my thankfulness...for all the people that have gone out and helped the tornado victims, that have raised money through very creative ways...for alot of things. i am not physically able to go out and do what i want to do...this really makes me mad...but i will get back to that point...it is just amazing to me that as divided as our state is - UA vs AU - that we have all pulled together and started the recovery process. it makes me so proud to be from Alabama....that's all folks....
Saturday, May 07, 2011
the good, the bad, the ugly and the rest of the story...
so if you have been following this saga...you can tell i have had technical difficulties with posting pictures...i have come to the conclusion that if you use pics from your i phone then it does not transmit like your camera...anyway...on to the real reason for this post....
so we left on saturday, april 30, and spent the night in augusta, ga. it was cool...got to go by the masters...even though barney fife would not even let us put our feet on the ground...had to take the pics from the window...oh well....
got to charleston on sunday...the place we stayed was absolutely awesome...well i should say where stephen got to stay cause i had an extended hospital stay....so here we go...
we get to the hospital on monday, met with the doctor, discussed what we were going to do and on to pre op did i skip...yes i said skip...they looked at my veins and asked where my port was...i just kind of laughed...they took me on back to the anestheologist (i don't think i spelled that right) anyway...yours truly ended up with an iv in her left foot...let it be known that i did not cuss nor take the Lord's name in vain....i did call on Him, His mother and any other saint i could think of....the doc looked at the nurse said...you know she has a fever...i think she needs to stay overnight...nurse says no she does not have a fever...doc says she will in a minute cause i am not going through this again tomorrow....i loved this doctor...had my first procedure...nothing noteworthy...stayed the night...so on tuesday we had the big test...the ERCP...it showed that my pancreas was working beautifully...we were very scared that it was not working...it seems the problem is my stomach...you know that big thing i carry around....anyway when i eat food it stays in my stomach anywhere from 24 to 48 hours after it is supposed to have you know gone down the toilet...look i told you this was ugly....therefore, it rots, makes me sick, puts me in pain, yeast grows which is even worse...then when i am so sick that i go to the ER the pain meds they give me make it worse...it just makes my stomach slower...so i am in a pickle...what do you do....
there are some meds out there...i am taking one, but it has some side effects that i am scared to death of but have not had any of them - yet...there is another drug that is approved in canada and europe but of course our fda won't approve cause there is no money to be made it it...but i digress...
so our next step is to go to the university of missississippi...there is a doctor there, Dr. Thomas Abelle....he invented the gastric pacemaker...it is a modified heart pacemaker but it is surgically placed in the stomach to stimulate those nerves to make that nasty food move on...
so we have some answers and that is what we prayed for...so we journey on...
Journey On - Ty Herndon
Sometimes the mountains tower high above you
Sometimes the currents just too fast to swim
Life can carry you all kind of places.
Journey On.
Sometimes in the moment of your weakness
When you're on the edge of giving in
You hold your heart before it falls to pieces.
Journey On.
Journey On - hold your head above the water
Journey On - you can weather out this storm
Journey On - there's a better day coming
A better world than you have ever known
Journey On - someone's waiting by the river
Waiting there to take you by the hand
So make the most of all that you've been given
Journey On.
Anybody's ship can take on water
You gotta make the choice to sink or swim
Just grab a piece of rubble from the wreckage
Journey On.
Too many times your heart will leave you stranded
You bear the scars of where you've been
Don't be afraid to ask for new direction
And Journey On.
Journey On - hold your head above the water
Journey On - you can weather out this storm
Journey On - there's a better day a coming
Oh, a better world than you have ever known.
Journey On - someone's waiting by the river
Waiting there to take you by the hand
So make the most of all that you've been given
Journey On.
Journey On -
Journey On.
so we left on saturday, april 30, and spent the night in augusta, ga. it was cool...got to go by the masters...even though barney fife would not even let us put our feet on the ground...had to take the pics from the window...oh well....
got to charleston on sunday...the place we stayed was absolutely awesome...well i should say where stephen got to stay cause i had an extended hospital stay....so here we go...
we get to the hospital on monday, met with the doctor, discussed what we were going to do and on to pre op did i skip...yes i said skip...they looked at my veins and asked where my port was...i just kind of laughed...they took me on back to the anestheologist (i don't think i spelled that right) anyway...yours truly ended up with an iv in her left foot...let it be known that i did not cuss nor take the Lord's name in vain....i did call on Him, His mother and any other saint i could think of....the doc looked at the nurse said...you know she has a fever...i think she needs to stay overnight...nurse says no she does not have a fever...doc says she will in a minute cause i am not going through this again tomorrow....i loved this doctor...had my first procedure...nothing noteworthy...stayed the night...so on tuesday we had the big test...the ERCP...it showed that my pancreas was working beautifully...we were very scared that it was not working...it seems the problem is my stomach...you know that big thing i carry around....anyway when i eat food it stays in my stomach anywhere from 24 to 48 hours after it is supposed to have you know gone down the toilet...look i told you this was ugly....therefore, it rots, makes me sick, puts me in pain, yeast grows which is even worse...then when i am so sick that i go to the ER the pain meds they give me make it worse...it just makes my stomach slower...so i am in a pickle...what do you do....
there are some meds out there...i am taking one, but it has some side effects that i am scared to death of but have not had any of them - yet...there is another drug that is approved in canada and europe but of course our fda won't approve cause there is no money to be made it it...but i digress...
so our next step is to go to the university of missississippi...there is a doctor there, Dr. Thomas Abelle....he invented the gastric pacemaker...it is a modified heart pacemaker but it is surgically placed in the stomach to stimulate those nerves to make that nasty food move on...
so we have some answers and that is what we prayed for...so we journey on...
Journey On - Ty Herndon
Sometimes the mountains tower high above you
Sometimes the currents just too fast to swim
Life can carry you all kind of places.
Journey On.
Sometimes in the moment of your weakness
When you're on the edge of giving in
You hold your heart before it falls to pieces.
Journey On.
Journey On - hold your head above the water
Journey On - you can weather out this storm
Journey On - there's a better day coming
A better world than you have ever known
Journey On - someone's waiting by the river
Waiting there to take you by the hand
So make the most of all that you've been given
Journey On.
Anybody's ship can take on water
You gotta make the choice to sink or swim
Just grab a piece of rubble from the wreckage
Journey On.
Too many times your heart will leave you stranded
You bear the scars of where you've been
Don't be afraid to ask for new direction
And Journey On.
Journey On - hold your head above the water
Journey On - you can weather out this storm
Journey On - there's a better day a coming
Oh, a better world than you have ever known.
Journey On - someone's waiting by the river
Waiting there to take you by the hand
So make the most of all that you've been given
Journey On.
Journey On -
Journey On.
Sunday, May 01, 2011
Roll Away Your Stone...
This song is by The Mumford Sons - I think I spelled it right...I borrowed this from someone else, but after all that our state has been through I just think it is perfect....you can google it and hear the song....
Roll away your stone, I’ll roll away mine
Together we can see what we can find
Don’t leave me alone at this time,
For I am afraid of what I will discover inside
You told me that I would find a home,
Within the fragile substance of my soul
And I have filled this void with things unreal,
And all the while my character it steals
But darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
It seems as if all my bridges have been burned,
You say that’s exactly how this grace thing works
It’s not the long walk home that will change this heart,
But the welcome I receive at the restart
Darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
Darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
But darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
Stars hide your fires,
And these are my desires
And I will give them up to you this time around
And so, I’ll be found with my stake stuck in this ground
Marking the territory of this newly impassioned soul
But you, you’ve come too far this time
You have neither reason nor rhyme
With which to take this soul that is so rightfully mine
Roll away your stone, I’ll roll away mine
Together we can see what we can find
Don’t leave me alone at this time,
For I am afraid of what I will discover inside
You told me that I would find a home,
Within the fragile substance of my soul
And I have filled this void with things unreal,
And all the while my character it steals
But darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
It seems as if all my bridges have been burned,
You say that’s exactly how this grace thing works
It’s not the long walk home that will change this heart,
But the welcome I receive at the restart
Darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
Darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
But darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I seek
Stars hide your fires,
And these are my desires
And I will give them up to you this time around
And so, I’ll be found with my stake stuck in this ground
Marking the territory of this newly impassioned soul
But you, you’ve come too far this time
You have neither reason nor rhyme
With which to take this soul that is so rightfully mine
Charleston Part I
Well we have made it to Charleston, SC, and we are staying at this quaint little place called Shem Creek Inn. It is on Shem Creek which is a major shrimping area. Very interesting place. We have eaten at some pretty cool places. We stopped in Columbia and toured the campus of The University of South Carolina. Let me tell you...it is pretty but it is NOTHING like The University of Alabama. The stadium is like 5 miles from campus. We could not get there because of construction. People have been very nice, and we hope to make another trip up here for a real vacaation. Here are some pics....sorry they are so small...I am having camera issues....
A week in review...
This is a southerner that just learned to love Yankees - THE Yankees - for their contributions to the recovery efforts. Considering how many folks from bama have gone to the NFL, MLB, NBA, even American Idol - I hope that those organizations step up as well. Also Beth Moore, one of my spiritual eartly heroes, has sent $10,000 to the relief efforts. Our state has been desimated. My family was so very blessed that we did not even have a branch in our yard. Yes we did not know where some family members in Tuscaloosa were for a while, but we found them. God is so good.
My uncle's cabin in Shoal Creek got damaged pretty bad. I could not get those pictures to upload. That little community was hit hard. There was an assisted living out there that I worked with alot. It is completely gone. The owners and all the Residents were killed. It has been a very stressful, sad, awakening week for us. But the sun is shining today, and God said, "I will never leave you or forsake you." For those who have lost everything and family members just know that God is still there. He has not left your side.
Peace and blessings....
I borrowed these pictures from my friend Rebekah Gilbert whose husband grew up in this town.
My uncle's cabin in Shoal Creek got damaged pretty bad. I could not get those pictures to upload. That little community was hit hard. There was an assisted living out there that I worked with alot. It is completely gone. The owners and all the Residents were killed. It has been a very stressful, sad, awakening week for us. But the sun is shining today, and God said, "I will never leave you or forsake you." For those who have lost everything and family members just know that God is still there. He has not left your side.
Peace and blessings....
I borrowed these pictures from my friend Rebekah Gilbert whose husband grew up in this town.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
The Masters...
Ok so I am kind of a dork! It never crossed my mind when Stephen told me we were going to stay in Augusta, GA, on Saturday night that that is where The Masters is played. Yes I am kind of slow. We drove by it and could not see alot. We pulled into the main gate and Barney Fife came around to Stephen's window. He would not even talk to me and he was closest to me. Anyway, I digress. He told us "you cannot exit the car but you can pull down here and take some pictures." What are we going to do if we "exit" the car? Have you seen the size of us? Do we look like we are going to play golf or that we are dangerous? Anyway, here is a picture of the trees that line the road going to The Masters.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
reflections...
Yes it is 4am and I am writing another post. God has laid something on my heart that is overwhelming. The lessons he is teaching me right now are so clear to me. I have never been one to say, "Oh Jesus spoke to me and told me to do....." Well Jesus did not audibly speak to me but He sure showed me where I needed to go study my Bible.
After yesterday's post, I really began reflecting on what I had written. Never in my life have I ever been so honest and raw for the whole world to see. But then I began to think, how many blogs I have "stumbled"upon that I read everyday for inspiration. I can only pray that someone does the same for my blog.
As I was studying my Bible last night, I came across a verse in Hebews 4: 14 - 16 that says, "Therefores, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as are - yet he was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us our time of need."
Yes this verse say "to help us in our time of need", but isn't every second of the day a time of need for us. This world is so cruel, mean, corrupt, etc. I have been the queen of praying when I needed something. My goal now is to be the Christian who leans on my Lord ALL the time not just in those "times of need."
I hope many of you don't think I have gone off the deep end, and maybe you do. I have been a Christian for the better part of 20 years. My faith has waivered just like yours has too. But my faith is renewed, and I just want to share it. Someone may be able to relate what I am going through.
Peace and blessings....
After yesterday's post, I really began reflecting on what I had written. Never in my life have I ever been so honest and raw for the whole world to see. But then I began to think, how many blogs I have "stumbled"upon that I read everyday for inspiration. I can only pray that someone does the same for my blog.
As I was studying my Bible last night, I came across a verse in Hebews 4: 14 - 16 that says, "Therefores, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as are - yet he was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us our time of need."
Yes this verse say "to help us in our time of need", but isn't every second of the day a time of need for us. This world is so cruel, mean, corrupt, etc. I have been the queen of praying when I needed something. My goal now is to be the Christian who leans on my Lord ALL the time not just in those "times of need."
I hope many of you don't think I have gone off the deep end, and maybe you do. I have been a Christian for the better part of 20 years. My faith has waivered just like yours has too. But my faith is renewed, and I just want to share it. Someone may be able to relate what I am going through.
Peace and blessings....
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
An Explaination...
So as I lay here in my bed, sick, hurting, nauseated and just purely miserable...I am counting the days to Sunday when we leave for SC. Yes we finally have our our appointment at The University of SC Medical Center. I will be there three days and will have 2 surgeries while there to hopefully correct this problem. The doctors there are the best in the nation for GI issues. UAB even sends their patients there.
I feel like I need to explain what has been going on for the past 14 months. I am a Juvenile Diabetic, that means my pancreas produces little if any insulin. Your pancreas also creates other juices and enzymes to help digest your food. Well I have something called pancreatic hypertension. This means that my pancreas blows up like a balloon, closes off and does not let those juices and enzymes come out to help in digestion. This causes pain, nausea and vomiting and all other sorts of wonderful things. In addition to that, I have gastroparesis. This means that my stomach is very slow to empty, and as gross as it may sound, sometimes food sits there for a very long time. This causes pain, nausea and vomiting. I also have sphincter of Oddi dysfunction. This is a little valve that comes off the pancreas that opens and closes to let those afore said juices and enzymes out. Well when my pancreas is swollen or in a hypertensive state, then that valve can't open. I have had to have it cut open to let pressure off. Then of course I deal with high blood pressure and fibromyalgia.
Guys and gals, this is very painful and it has debilitated me. I can hardly eat any foods. Yogurt has been my best friend. I hate eating and yall know how much I used to love that....
During this time, I have had my faith tested. I have been angry at God, I have questioned God, have had severe depression and many other things. But over the past couple of months, my doctor that I have been with for over 10 years has opened up to me about his walk with Jesus and some of his struggles. I have realized I am not the only one in a boat like this. My hope has come back. Yes there are still days that I am wretching in pain. But over the past few weeks, I have renewed my faith in God, I have asked Him to forgive me of my wrongful thoughts about all this. I figured out that He is teaching me to lean on Him ALL the time, not just when I need Him. My best friend reminded me last night that when Jesus hung on that cruel cross and said, "My God My God why have you forsaken me?" He felt all alone, no one understood His pain. But he NEVER gave up His hope nor did He quit praying.
I just want to encourage anyone who is going through any kind of troubles, physical, emotional, spiritual, Your Jesus has been there. He is still there for you just like He has been there for me. I truly believe that all of this has been a lesson to me to lean on Him ALL the time. This is something that I have been guilty of not doing.
Just as God's timing is perfect, last Friday, I got the phone call from South Carolina for my appointment. I will be leaving Sunday, May 1, and be there for a few days to undergo some tests and surgeries. I am fully confident in God that I am going to get some answers. Yes my doctors here in Birmingham are awesome, but sometimes you have to go somewhere else.
As I end this note, I do want to share that although I feel very bad today, I have had two wonderful days. Easter was wonderful and yesterday was great too. I was able to walk 1/2 mile, do some pretty intense house cleaning, run errands, have some time with my best friend and cooked a great supper for my family. God is good!
No one may read this, but if one person does and it helps them through their pain, then it was worth me writing. Peace to all....
I feel like I need to explain what has been going on for the past 14 months. I am a Juvenile Diabetic, that means my pancreas produces little if any insulin. Your pancreas also creates other juices and enzymes to help digest your food. Well I have something called pancreatic hypertension. This means that my pancreas blows up like a balloon, closes off and does not let those juices and enzymes come out to help in digestion. This causes pain, nausea and vomiting and all other sorts of wonderful things. In addition to that, I have gastroparesis. This means that my stomach is very slow to empty, and as gross as it may sound, sometimes food sits there for a very long time. This causes pain, nausea and vomiting. I also have sphincter of Oddi dysfunction. This is a little valve that comes off the pancreas that opens and closes to let those afore said juices and enzymes out. Well when my pancreas is swollen or in a hypertensive state, then that valve can't open. I have had to have it cut open to let pressure off. Then of course I deal with high blood pressure and fibromyalgia.
Guys and gals, this is very painful and it has debilitated me. I can hardly eat any foods. Yogurt has been my best friend. I hate eating and yall know how much I used to love that....
During this time, I have had my faith tested. I have been angry at God, I have questioned God, have had severe depression and many other things. But over the past couple of months, my doctor that I have been with for over 10 years has opened up to me about his walk with Jesus and some of his struggles. I have realized I am not the only one in a boat like this. My hope has come back. Yes there are still days that I am wretching in pain. But over the past few weeks, I have renewed my faith in God, I have asked Him to forgive me of my wrongful thoughts about all this. I figured out that He is teaching me to lean on Him ALL the time, not just when I need Him. My best friend reminded me last night that when Jesus hung on that cruel cross and said, "My God My God why have you forsaken me?" He felt all alone, no one understood His pain. But he NEVER gave up His hope nor did He quit praying.
I just want to encourage anyone who is going through any kind of troubles, physical, emotional, spiritual, Your Jesus has been there. He is still there for you just like He has been there for me. I truly believe that all of this has been a lesson to me to lean on Him ALL the time. This is something that I have been guilty of not doing.
Just as God's timing is perfect, last Friday, I got the phone call from South Carolina for my appointment. I will be leaving Sunday, May 1, and be there for a few days to undergo some tests and surgeries. I am fully confident in God that I am going to get some answers. Yes my doctors here in Birmingham are awesome, but sometimes you have to go somewhere else.
As I end this note, I do want to share that although I feel very bad today, I have had two wonderful days. Easter was wonderful and yesterday was great too. I was able to walk 1/2 mile, do some pretty intense house cleaning, run errands, have some time with my best friend and cooked a great supper for my family. God is good!
No one may read this, but if one person does and it helps them through their pain, then it was worth me writing. Peace to all....
Sunday, April 10, 2011
so what have I been doing...
Well, funny you should ask. I don't really know why I bother writing these blogs, because only a very few take the time to read them much less make a comment. But I am going to use a bullet style format to keep myself from being wordy.
*well I went back to work for a very short period of time - 7 weeks of which I was in the hospital for 3, which makes a total of 4...that is pushing it
*continue to have enormous GI issues
* have decided that although I am not a stay at home mom kind of person that is what God has demanded, comanded and insisted that I be right now
*been to the doctor more times than I can count
*decided that "we tend to identify ourselves and each other primarily by what we look like....or what we do"...ok this would be me...
*"Is who you are determined by what you do, or is what we determined by who you are?"
* "that good appearance plus the admiration of others equal a whole person or that we feel that star performance plus accomplishments equal a whole person"
* "I am already a whole person and possess a life of infinite meaning and purpose because I am a child of God"
* "Being a child of God who is alive and free in Christ shoudl determine what we do"
Let me insert here that I am reading a book called, " Victory Over The Darkness".
* I have decided to be a stay at home mom and MAKE IT WORK."
* I have discovered an awesome website called....www.onceamonthmom.com
*It gives recipes, printable recipes and printable grocery lists...it also gives you the quantities to make for a whole month so that you can have it twice!
*I have decided to break my house into sections to clean...that is another post
* I have decided to do something one day a week for myself...that does not include getting a mani or pedi each week...I am a helping person...so I am going to volunteer once a week at an area hospice company and if I so feel like it visit with a friend who is a shut in, fellow stay at home mom or just a friend who I miss...
*I have decided to continue my walking routine...I had gotten up to a mile a day...I have only been doing this since Feb 15....
*and anything else that might cross my simple little mind....
What are you doing this week? I will need some new ideas....
*well I went back to work for a very short period of time - 7 weeks of which I was in the hospital for 3, which makes a total of 4...that is pushing it
*continue to have enormous GI issues
* have decided that although I am not a stay at home mom kind of person that is what God has demanded, comanded and insisted that I be right now
*been to the doctor more times than I can count
*decided that "we tend to identify ourselves and each other primarily by what we look like....or what we do"...ok this would be me...
*"Is who you are determined by what you do, or is what we determined by who you are?"
* "that good appearance plus the admiration of others equal a whole person or that we feel that star performance plus accomplishments equal a whole person"
* "I am already a whole person and possess a life of infinite meaning and purpose because I am a child of God"
* "Being a child of God who is alive and free in Christ shoudl determine what we do"
Let me insert here that I am reading a book called, " Victory Over The Darkness".
* I have decided to be a stay at home mom and MAKE IT WORK."
* I have discovered an awesome website called....www.onceamonthmom.com
*It gives recipes, printable recipes and printable grocery lists...it also gives you the quantities to make for a whole month so that you can have it twice!
*I have decided to break my house into sections to clean...that is another post
* I have decided to do something one day a week for myself...that does not include getting a mani or pedi each week...I am a helping person...so I am going to volunteer once a week at an area hospice company and if I so feel like it visit with a friend who is a shut in, fellow stay at home mom or just a friend who I miss...
*I have decided to continue my walking routine...I had gotten up to a mile a day...I have only been doing this since Feb 15....
*and anything else that might cross my simple little mind....
What are you doing this week? I will need some new ideas....
Monday, March 21, 2011
since we last spoke...
since we last spoke alot has happened
*went to a conference in huntsville for my social work license
* it was great - learned alot
*got sick with an URI that turned into a hospitalizationv-vdoesn't that sound like fun....
*halfway through the first semester of college with my daughter
*spring has sprung :)
*got to spend several hours with one of my besties over dinner and at the bookstore
*got to spend the afternoon with my very best friend and her girls celebrating their birthday...
what have you been up to?
*went to a conference in huntsville for my social work license
* it was great - learned alot
*got sick with an URI that turned into a hospitalizationv-vdoesn't that sound like fun....
*halfway through the first semester of college with my daughter
*spring has sprung :)
*got to spend several hours with one of my besties over dinner and at the bookstore
*got to spend the afternoon with my very best friend and her girls celebrating their birthday...
what have you been up to?
Saturday, March 05, 2011
been stuck...
i have been stuck on so many levels lately...stuck in my writing, stuck on a professional level, stuck on good reading material...just stuck...
well i have been on my job for a month....it is the most challenging social work job i have ever had...
there is so much i want to do on a professional level but am not able to for various reasons...
nothing is appealing to me in the arena of good books....
don't understand why social workers are so underpaid...it is rediculous...
questioning some decisions i have made...
trying to wrap my head around the reasoning of the nfl to call the president in to intervene over a $9 billion pot of revenue...do they not realize there are people losing jobs everyday, losing their houses to foreclosure and such and all they can do is bicker over this...please
why people are so mean....
where are you stuck?
well i have been on my job for a month....it is the most challenging social work job i have ever had...
there is so much i want to do on a professional level but am not able to for various reasons...
nothing is appealing to me in the arena of good books....
don't understand why social workers are so underpaid...it is rediculous...
questioning some decisions i have made...
trying to wrap my head around the reasoning of the nfl to call the president in to intervene over a $9 billion pot of revenue...do they not realize there are people losing jobs everyday, losing their houses to foreclosure and such and all they can do is bicker over this...please
why people are so mean....
where are you stuck?
Friday, February 25, 2011
My Life in 100 Questions,,,
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
uppler left lip - Matt Brooks hit me in the mouth with a frisbee...
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Asian bird scene
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Hubs says I snore, I know I grind my teeth and yes I talk in my sleep...could never have an affair
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
country and folk
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
7:43 am I think - mom said if I had been her first I would have been the last
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
perfect health
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
my Granny and her silliness
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'8"
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
sometimes...it depends...MRI machines and I are NOT friends
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
yep...I hate the dark
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
dying alone - yes I have worked social WAY too long - seen this too many times
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
obviously bald and blue eyes - that is what I married
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
Let's go with over a sprained shoulder, whiplash and Blimpie sandwich
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Coffee and lots of it
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
everything - love the supremem pizza at Pizza Hut - my Granny and me used to go to the Pizza Hut in Rainbow City and sit and watch the cute Italian man, yes he was truly Italian, make the dough and then the pizza
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
tons of crab meat
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
only those in a bag
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED
my dirty Dairy Queen shirt that my mom gave me when she dropped me off at college that had a note on it that said, "Just a gentle reminder to study, Love Mom"
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
On yeah! My Stephen
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
At my age I'm barely single jointed
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Old Navy
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
13
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Bruntettes - this is of course my choice of hair color for myself
32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"Poor planning on your part does not constitute an emergency on my part!"
33. FAVORITE PLACE?
where there is no cell service, a balcony, a lake and a cup of coffee - Guntersville
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Nope
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
people who have no family to help them - I work in a nursing home - I see it too often
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Greg McElroy
37. FIRST JOB?
cutting grass for a doctor across the road from my house
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Only those my sister put me up to
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
yep
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
sleeping
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
too many to mention
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
eyes / smile
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
No
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
To be 36 and health
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
How 'bout two....Jamie and Jacob
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
my grandmother and my aunt - Virginia Diane
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
When they think they know everything and they don't know diddley
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
All the old friends...especially those conversations early in the morning on the front steps...
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
suave essentials
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Most of the time
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
roast beef
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Diet Mt. Dew
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Not really
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Probably just for the smart mouth comments
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
I don't know...I don't have any
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Not so much as I get older....
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
do you really want that
58.WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
lose 58 and I am steadily working on it...
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Wonder Woman
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Too many
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
I'm older than Barney
63. Do you use sarcasm?
Every day, all day -that is how I get through the day....
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
taters
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
teeth and half a brain
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Gin, Gin Gin, GiGi, Ginny Rat
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
making people disappear
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Intervention
69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Let them remain enemies and go on with your life
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Blue Bell Sugar Free Cookies and Cream
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Today I do
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
yep
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
try to go back to sleep
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
in a RV traveling the country
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
it would be nice
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
the sound of the AC and my husband's CPAP machine
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
tea
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
momma
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
teeth
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
read
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
snakes - Satan's puppets
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
spring - buttercups come out
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Laffy Taffy
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
Still do - since kindergarden
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
dirty blonde with gray
86. EYE COLOR?
Blue
87. SHOE SIZE?
violin cases
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Sonic
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Styx
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Most of it
91. WATCH TV TODAY?
Yep
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
everyday the Lord allows me to wake up
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
trumpet
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Conservative (idiots on both sides of the isle now)
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
hugs
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Well, married 13 years I guess it's a series of one night stands....
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
sub sandwich
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
have been - it is the most stressful underpaid job EVER
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
some trashy romance Shaye gave me - love ya girl
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Great - most think a love life is physical - it is more emotional than anything
How bout you?
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uppler left lip - Matt Brooks hit me in the mouth with a frisbee...
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Asian bird scene
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Hubs says I snore, I know I grind my teeth and yes I talk in my sleep...could never have an affair
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
country and folk
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
7:43 am I think - mom said if I had been her first I would have been the last
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
perfect health
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
my Granny and her silliness
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'8"
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
sometimes...it depends...MRI machines and I are NOT friends
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
yep...I hate the dark
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
dying alone - yes I have worked social WAY too long - seen this too many times
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
obviously bald and blue eyes - that is what I married
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
Let's go with over a sprained shoulder, whiplash and Blimpie sandwich
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Coffee and lots of it
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
everything - love the supremem pizza at Pizza Hut - my Granny and me used to go to the Pizza Hut in Rainbow City and sit and watch the cute Italian man, yes he was truly Italian, make the dough and then the pizza
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
tons of crab meat
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
only those in a bag
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED
my dirty Dairy Queen shirt that my mom gave me when she dropped me off at college that had a note on it that said, "Just a gentle reminder to study, Love Mom"
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
On yeah! My Stephen
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
At my age I'm barely single jointed
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Old Navy
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
13
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Bruntettes - this is of course my choice of hair color for myself
32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"Poor planning on your part does not constitute an emergency on my part!"
33. FAVORITE PLACE?
where there is no cell service, a balcony, a lake and a cup of coffee - Guntersville
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Nope
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
people who have no family to help them - I work in a nursing home - I see it too often
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Greg McElroy
37. FIRST JOB?
cutting grass for a doctor across the road from my house
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Only those my sister put me up to
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
yep
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
sleeping
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
too many to mention
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
eyes / smile
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
No
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
To be 36 and health
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
How 'bout two....Jamie and Jacob
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
my grandmother and my aunt - Virginia Diane
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
When they think they know everything and they don't know diddley
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
All the old friends...especially those conversations early in the morning on the front steps...
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
suave essentials
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Most of the time
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
roast beef
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Diet Mt. Dew
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Not really
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Probably just for the smart mouth comments
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
I don't know...I don't have any
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Not so much as I get older....
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
do you really want that
58.WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
lose 58 and I am steadily working on it...
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Wonder Woman
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Too many
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
I'm older than Barney
63. Do you use sarcasm?
Every day, all day -that is how I get through the day....
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
taters
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
teeth and half a brain
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Gin, Gin Gin, GiGi, Ginny Rat
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
making people disappear
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Intervention
69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Let them remain enemies and go on with your life
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Blue Bell Sugar Free Cookies and Cream
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Today I do
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
yep
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
try to go back to sleep
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
in a RV traveling the country
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
it would be nice
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
the sound of the AC and my husband's CPAP machine
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
tea
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
momma
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
teeth
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
read
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
snakes - Satan's puppets
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
spring - buttercups come out
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Laffy Taffy
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
Still do - since kindergarden
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
dirty blonde with gray
86. EYE COLOR?
Blue
87. SHOE SIZE?
violin cases
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Sonic
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Styx
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Most of it
91. WATCH TV TODAY?
Yep
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
everyday the Lord allows me to wake up
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
trumpet
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Conservative (idiots on both sides of the isle now)
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
hugs
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Well, married 13 years I guess it's a series of one night stands....
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
sub sandwich
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
have been - it is the most stressful underpaid job EVER
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
some trashy romance Shaye gave me - love ya girl
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Great - most think a love life is physical - it is more emotional than anything
How bout you?
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Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Hi, My name is Ginny....
Since I last posted, so much has happened. I have started a new job after being off work for almost a year due to health problems. Did not think I would be able to return to work, but man oh man, God showed up and showed out. I have finally gotten the diagnosis that we have hunted for over a year...I have fibromyalgia. It is amazing what alot of prayer and a little medication will do.
My Jacob is doing great in school. We have set up some services for him related to his ADD and dyslexia. The curriculum is the same as the other kids, and they are transitioning him to be able to complete the Advanced Diploma in high school. Yes he is in the 6th grade, but this takes alot of time. His last progress report showed all A's and B's and one C. This was amazing. Therefore, he got to go to World of Wheels in Birmingham and meet Greg McElroy, former quarterback for Alabama. I explained to Jacob that GMac graduated with a 4.0, is a Rhodes Scholar and handled football. When we met GMac, I told him this. He put his pen down, motioned to the lady behind us to hold a minute and spoke to Jacob on a very personal level about school and the importance of his education. It was amazing...
My Jamie is rockin the whole college thing. We are halfway through her first semester and she has NOT missed a single class. She is doing really good. She is being challenged unlike while she was in high school. She has one whacky teacher but hey haven't we all had that....
My hubs sent me beautiful flowers for Valentines Day. I also got a Valentine's present straight from heaven. Walk with me here. My Granny that passed away this past November..had a collection of quilts that are unreal. Noone knew which quilt was my favorite except my Granny. My mom and dad went to get some stuff from her house, and my aunt said to my dad, "get a quilt you think Ginny would want." He picked out THE quilt. I got home from work yesterday and knew nothing about this trip. When my mom gave it to me I just cried. I went home got in the bed and wrapped up in that quilt. It smelled like my grandmother. It brought back so many memories. This is the quilt that everytime I spent the night with her even when I was grown and married...she made my bed up with it. It has been very therapeutic for me to get some of her stuff. I miss her terribly, but I know she is in Heaven, made whole and is alot happier than I am.
Thank you for traveling with me. Hope to hear from yall soon....Hugs, kisses and peace to all....
My Jacob is doing great in school. We have set up some services for him related to his ADD and dyslexia. The curriculum is the same as the other kids, and they are transitioning him to be able to complete the Advanced Diploma in high school. Yes he is in the 6th grade, but this takes alot of time. His last progress report showed all A's and B's and one C. This was amazing. Therefore, he got to go to World of Wheels in Birmingham and meet Greg McElroy, former quarterback for Alabama. I explained to Jacob that GMac graduated with a 4.0, is a Rhodes Scholar and handled football. When we met GMac, I told him this. He put his pen down, motioned to the lady behind us to hold a minute and spoke to Jacob on a very personal level about school and the importance of his education. It was amazing...
My Jamie is rockin the whole college thing. We are halfway through her first semester and she has NOT missed a single class. She is doing really good. She is being challenged unlike while she was in high school. She has one whacky teacher but hey haven't we all had that....
My hubs sent me beautiful flowers for Valentines Day. I also got a Valentine's present straight from heaven. Walk with me here. My Granny that passed away this past November..had a collection of quilts that are unreal. Noone knew which quilt was my favorite except my Granny. My mom and dad went to get some stuff from her house, and my aunt said to my dad, "get a quilt you think Ginny would want." He picked out THE quilt. I got home from work yesterday and knew nothing about this trip. When my mom gave it to me I just cried. I went home got in the bed and wrapped up in that quilt. It smelled like my grandmother. It brought back so many memories. This is the quilt that everytime I spent the night with her even when I was grown and married...she made my bed up with it. It has been very therapeutic for me to get some of her stuff. I miss her terribly, but I know she is in Heaven, made whole and is alot happier than I am.
Thank you for traveling with me. Hope to hear from yall soon....Hugs, kisses and peace to all....
Saturday, January 22, 2011
I AM.....
I Am.
I Am...Ginny
I Want...my house to be clean...
I Have...a much better life than I ever thought possible and more than i deserve
I Wish...I could re raise my childre....i don't think i have done a very good job
I Hate...being late, feeling guilty, disappointing people, stubbing my toe, biting my tongue, a dirty house, fighting, people who abuse othe people
s
I Fear...that a snake will get in my house...it will immediately go up for sale
I Hear...my son talking about fishing- he would rather fish than eat
I Search...the Internet for anything....
I Wonder...what my life would have been like if i had been a nurse...
I Regret...not finishing school earlier
I Love...my husband, my son, my daughter, surprises, day trips with my hubs, seeing my children succeed in school
I Ache...when my children are sick, my parents getting older, when i hear about the elderly being abused, the pressure that my children have in school...
I Always...strive for perfection.
I Usually...fall short.
I Am Not...a pushover.
I Dance...hardly ever - i have no rhythm...
I Sing...in the car to anything that is on the radio....
I Never...feel completely relaxed.
I Rarely...deep clean my house...i need to or hire a maid
I Cry...not as much as i used to
I Am Not Always...as put together and confident as people think I am.
I Lose...sleep.
I'm Confused...about my health and why it is so bad
I Need...more hours in the day.
I Should...do so much more...too much to list
Who Are You?
I Am...Ginny
I Want...my house to be clean...
I Have...a much better life than I ever thought possible and more than i deserve
I Wish...I could re raise my childre....i don't think i have done a very good job
I Hate...being late, feeling guilty, disappointing people, stubbing my toe, biting my tongue, a dirty house, fighting, people who abuse othe people
s
I Fear...that a snake will get in my house...it will immediately go up for sale
I Hear...my son talking about fishing- he would rather fish than eat
I Search...the Internet for anything....
I Wonder...what my life would have been like if i had been a nurse...
I Regret...not finishing school earlier
I Love...my husband, my son, my daughter, surprises, day trips with my hubs, seeing my children succeed in school
I Ache...when my children are sick, my parents getting older, when i hear about the elderly being abused, the pressure that my children have in school...
I Always...strive for perfection.
I Usually...fall short.
I Am Not...a pushover.
I Dance...hardly ever - i have no rhythm...
I Sing...in the car to anything that is on the radio....
I Never...feel completely relaxed.
I Rarely...deep clean my house...i need to or hire a maid
I Cry...not as much as i used to
I Am Not Always...as put together and confident as people think I am.
I Lose...sleep.
I'm Confused...about my health and why it is so bad
I Need...more hours in the day.
I Should...do so much more...too much to list
Who Are You?
Monday, January 17, 2011
what in the world have I been doing?
haven't posted in a while...had ALOT going on...like I was waiting for Bryce to call me for my private suite complete with padded walls...i have been back in the hospital...thought I had the flu..negative...thought I had kidney stones...negative...had kidney infection...think I have a nasty return of a fungus...yes I know that is gross...in my UTI tract...going for outpatient procedure on Thursday to investigate that...daughter started school...I am looking for a job...had an AWESOME interview today...really hoping this works out...really don't want to drive to Birmingham anymore...having a root canal tomorrow...got a sick child...so I have been busy...including my smart mouthed husband but that just comes with the territory!
Thursday, January 06, 2011
Today....
Well today has been an interesting day. I took my oldest daughter to college. I showed her how to go and pay your tuition, get parking decals, to buy "used books" and how to always find your classes before they start. It was weird, I think she actually listened to me. I don't think she realized how much school costs. In all, I think we paid a total of about $2500.00 for this semeseter! I told her she had alot of dishes to do! *grin* I am so proud of her. She has a plan and seems very determined to stick to it. She told me today that she is not worried about her social life now like she was when she was in high school. Another statement today was, "I am really going to apply myself and see how smart I am". My precious daughter has been through alot in her life. She has had cancer, her biological mother abandoned her, has had her heart broken many times, but she has always overcome it. I met her dad when she was five years old. I fell in love with her before I fell in love with her dad. I feel that I have devoted my life to her and now I am seeing the results of it. She is in the pre nursing program and already knows that she wants to work with cancer patients. She knows what they are going through. She has lost body parts, her hair and so much more. But she is back with a vengence and is ready to conquer the world. I am so proud of her and I know she will make a great nurse. I love you Jamie Leigh!
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
watch out 2011....
This post has been on my facebook page for a few days, and I was having difficulty copying and pasting from one site to another. Anyway, here it is...hope you enjoy....
This may turn into a long post, but I will try to be concise. Most of you know that this has not been the greatest year for me. If you have failed to realize this then you must wear rose tinted glasses. Anyway, I have gone through some severe depression from having to resign from my job due to my health, which continued to decline. Recently thought I was ready to go back to work and was absolutely blown away by some comments that were made to me. I was humiliated to have to apply for disability. The depression just got worse and worse. I have been in a very dark place. Well there are three things that happened to me over this weekend that tell me that 2011 is not going to be that way.
The first thing that happened was I had the pleasure of hearing a group called Crystal River, www.chrystalriveronline.net. A trio of guys who are on fire on for the Lord. Everyone song they sang I needed to hear. One song in particular, My History is Not My Destiny, really slapped me all in the face. I have done things in my past that I am not proud of, but I know that I am a child of the King. All of that mess I created is gone - forgiven and forgotten. I have to let it go.
The second thing that happened was a sermon I listened to on Sunday morning. The preacher at Frazier United Methodist Church in Montgomery is awesome. He preached about all the times in the Bible where God refers to himself as the Light. He talked about the Light will never be put out by the darkness. How we have so much darkness in our lives due to losing a job, having failing health, depression beyond your control, disappointed in your kids and their behaviors - hello are you talking to me? I mean there are over a 1000 people in that church and he is all in my face. The one thing he said that stuck with me is this statement, "What better gift to give Jesus this Christmas season than all your darkness...He can handle it....Let Him bring light into your life." That really stuck with me. Why am I hanging on to all this junk that I can't do anything about? Why am I not leaning on Him rather than myself - I think there is a Bible verse about that. :) I looked up how many times the word "light" is used in the Bible - 232 times where darkness is used 163 times. Even in the Bible, light takes over.
The third thing that happened was I read Beth Moore's blog - per ususal. Well she is a phenomenol Christian, teacher and woman. She is a firm believer in memorizing verses. Her theory is that if you have a plethera of verses in your head, you can pull one out at any time to fit your situation. This could be while ministering to another person, your having a bad day or you want to give glory to God for something He has worked out in your life. So she suggested taking a spiral bound index card and using it for memorizing verses that apply to your life. To do this you would memorize 2 verses a month. In addition she suggested to get an accountability partner who will do the same thing. Each one will hold the other accountable for memorizing their verses. (Well I picked another awesome Christian, Becky. She was my college roommate and kept me straight!) Anyway my verses for the year are going to be all about light. If it is used 232 times in the Bible then surely I can come up with 24 verses about light and how He will guide, guard and keep us in every situation we have. There may still be darkness that comes into my life in this New Year, but I am going to have a weapon ready for it.
I know this is kind of lengthy, but I just felt I had to share. So many people have been an encouragement to me, and I know they too must face darkness in their life at times. I want to be that person who can encourage in the New Year. I want to thank each person who reads this for all the encouragement you have given me this year. I hope I can return the gift....
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This may turn into a long post, but I will try to be concise. Most of you know that this has not been the greatest year for me. If you have failed to realize this then you must wear rose tinted glasses. Anyway, I have gone through some severe depression from having to resign from my job due to my health, which continued to decline. Recently thought I was ready to go back to work and was absolutely blown away by some comments that were made to me. I was humiliated to have to apply for disability. The depression just got worse and worse. I have been in a very dark place. Well there are three things that happened to me over this weekend that tell me that 2011 is not going to be that way.
The first thing that happened was I had the pleasure of hearing a group called Crystal River, www.chrystalriveronline.net. A trio of guys who are on fire on for the Lord. Everyone song they sang I needed to hear. One song in particular, My History is Not My Destiny, really slapped me all in the face. I have done things in my past that I am not proud of, but I know that I am a child of the King. All of that mess I created is gone - forgiven and forgotten. I have to let it go.
The second thing that happened was a sermon I listened to on Sunday morning. The preacher at Frazier United Methodist Church in Montgomery is awesome. He preached about all the times in the Bible where God refers to himself as the Light. He talked about the Light will never be put out by the darkness. How we have so much darkness in our lives due to losing a job, having failing health, depression beyond your control, disappointed in your kids and their behaviors - hello are you talking to me? I mean there are over a 1000 people in that church and he is all in my face. The one thing he said that stuck with me is this statement, "What better gift to give Jesus this Christmas season than all your darkness...He can handle it....Let Him bring light into your life." That really stuck with me. Why am I hanging on to all this junk that I can't do anything about? Why am I not leaning on Him rather than myself - I think there is a Bible verse about that. :) I looked up how many times the word "light" is used in the Bible - 232 times where darkness is used 163 times. Even in the Bible, light takes over.
The third thing that happened was I read Beth Moore's blog - per ususal. Well she is a phenomenol Christian, teacher and woman. She is a firm believer in memorizing verses. Her theory is that if you have a plethera of verses in your head, you can pull one out at any time to fit your situation. This could be while ministering to another person, your having a bad day or you want to give glory to God for something He has worked out in your life. So she suggested taking a spiral bound index card and using it for memorizing verses that apply to your life. To do this you would memorize 2 verses a month. In addition she suggested to get an accountability partner who will do the same thing. Each one will hold the other accountable for memorizing their verses. (Well I picked another awesome Christian, Becky. She was my college roommate and kept me straight!) Anyway my verses for the year are going to be all about light. If it is used 232 times in the Bible then surely I can come up with 24 verses about light and how He will guide, guard and keep us in every situation we have. There may still be darkness that comes into my life in this New Year, but I am going to have a weapon ready for it.
I know this is kind of lengthy, but I just felt I had to share. So many people have been an encouragement to me, and I know they too must face darkness in their life at times. I want to be that person who can encourage in the New Year. I want to thank each person who reads this for all the encouragement you have given me this year. I hope I can return the gift....
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