Have you ever....

Have you ever felt so bad physically and emotionally but then feel guility because you know there are others who are worse off than you? That is where I have been lately. I am one of the most blessed women on the face of the Earth. Some people don't understand how our family works but we do. We are all healthy and happy for the most part. But sometimes I just get to feeling sad and all I want to do is cry. I miss people. I get disgusted at work. I get tired of the corporate latter. But yet I want to work. I want to be that parent that is at church with clean little children and husband in tow. I want to be that person who always remembers everyone's birthdays and baby showers. I want to be that mom that that teachers don't dread see coming. I want all of this but don't know how to get it. I want to host parties, I want a pretty yard. Is this all too much to want? Is this what they call a Gold Digger?

It's a wrap.....

It has been a while since we last spoke. I am not one of those gifted writers who can just type out some hilarious, thought provoking, inspirational post,i.e. Becky, Karen, Dana.....just sayin....

Anyway, thing have been pretty quiet around here, but I expect that to chane since I said the Q word. Jamie is still working at the grocery store and getting good hours. She got registered for her 2nd semester - survey of the New Testament, Intro to Sociology, English 101 (again b/c she had a psychotic teacher) and ie intermediate Algebra, which she totally rocked Algebra 100 last semester. She has changed her major to Computer Information Systems with an emphasis in graphic design. Very proud of her. Oh and did I mention she bought her brother a birthday present out of her own money without being reminded.

Jacob is growing way too fast. He is about to be 12 years old and starting the 7th grade. I don't know if I am ready for that, but I really don't have a say in that either. He has played so much this summer. What is it about boys and that smell they put off? We call it "male smell". He smells like a locker toom everyday. He has really slimmed down a lot. His reading is coming along very nicely. I don't think his teachers will think so, but what do they know. We are having a pool party for him on Saturday at my aunt's house.

I have started my new job. The jury is still out on that one. I have been doing this for 15 years and have never seen quite the arrangement that is going on. Folks don't know how to talk to each other - like almost screaming. They are very immature. Now if they start that with me, well yall know where that is headed - south - quickly. They are very unorganized. I knew going into the job there were problems, but it looks like to me that most of it is the employees. If you have employees who know how to act and will do their job then you don't have probkems. On another note, we had a health scare. To make a very long story short, I went to work Monday and just did not feel good. I had not felt good since Friday. Anyway, my heart was beating at 145 and my blood pressure was 145/110. Nobody asked me any questions, she called the ambulance and off to Gadsden Regional I went. Come to find out I was septic from pyelonephritis, had a bladder infection and slight pnemonia. They wheeled me right on up to MICU where I stayed for 4 days there on a dopamine drip and 3 days in a regular room. You all know I am not a good patient, but I must have behaved bc they were still talking to me when I left. I only had one problem while there and it was with a doctor. When he was putting my central line in, he kept telling me how fat I was. I had just bout had enough of this and d rei politely told him that I have a mirror and am quite aware of my size. You all know there was some colorful conversation that followed. Anyway, other tanat.

Daughter has just told me her car is "scrubbin and it did not steer well". This is a big old sad face. I guess that will be vacation money or a great portion of it. But I would rather have my dauhter a safe car than laying on the beach, although that sounds more applelaing

Stephen is doing well.He just work like trojan horse. He has been there 14 years come September. I am very proud of him.He gets to work from home 2 days a week, for putting up with me which is a full time job.

Well that is a wrap for the lfe and times of the Bassakward family. If you finished reading this, then you a true fried! Love to all

It's been a while...

we have been so busy in this season called summer where you are supposed to relax. ha...that's for the birds. Work is going good and I am about to go to work at a nursing home in Bham. They pay a whole bunch more than this part time consulting work i am doing.

very excited - i got $590 worth of clothes yesterday for $254 and that included tax. I will be a sharp dressed lady at work. Now just to go buy shoes and jewelry.

Jamie got a job! Thank you to Man upstairs. She is working at a loca grocery store. She has done really well about setting her alarm clock and getting up. You know she is the princess. She finished the first semester with an A - Algebra, B - Biology, B Speech and B Pyschology. I was very proud of her. She has changed her major to CIS and will focus on web desing and graphics.


I am working on an article that I will submit to "Social Work Today" about skilled nursing facilities. I don't have a title yet. When I finish it and it is ready to be submitted I will post it. I know not everyone gets "Social Work Today" so there you will have it

I am still doing great. If I could only sleep I would be perfect. It escapes every night. NO health problems here.

I have bought a new car - not new but new to me. It is a 2006 Chevy Cobalt. It is really cute and gets great gas mileage.

If you are still reading this you must be a real friend, cause this is really boring. I just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive.

Hugs to all!